A girl during night

A girl during night

Shaken from breath i was (tonight), and in trying to recapture the air that was so quickly leaving me-

 empty…

i awoke to the leaving night. 

Farewell stars, 

 if such fright did not come to me by night, i would wish you to stay by my side. But,

i am awake now, i am here now. i am no longer there.

No one can explain to me how horrible visions come to me under a blanket of beauty as is the moon and its sewn on stars. 

i have done nothing wrong… i swear it. 

i have seen nothing disturbing… i swear it.  

i turn my head to see if i have bothered him- again.

No-

He is still and asleep.

i envy him.

And although he does not love me back… i love watching him …

and feeling him sleep through my fear. 

The silent yawns of tiredness are overpowering me…

My eyes are falling, 

But

 i can’t go back there.